My bearded dragon, Little Bit, died today. And I cried and cried and cried. Why? It was like the final straw, the one that breaks the camel’s back… Throwing your base chakra all out of whack lol…. So I cried and allowed myself to feel the pain and sorrow, and I didn’t feel bad for crying or feeling bad… Why? Because it’s a natural process. Just like the clouds have to release it’s moisture… Crying is like an emotional release. It allows you to wash away old emotions, and make room for new fresh ones. (*PAUSE: Let’s ground, and take a deep breath and release the old)…
See the truth is when they told me he was going to die, I said no, and I fought it. I got angry, and I put every ounce of that energy into saving him. And he still died. WHY? Because he did. The cause…. well, that may never be know, but the lesson can always be revealed… But that’s only IF you choose to learn. I can spend lots of TIME and analyze WHY, but I will miss the lesson. I will become mentally stuck on this slow moving, dense, “Icky” emotion. I could be stuck here, and spend days or weeks…or WORSE…months of just crying, complaining, and whining. But if I ground myself now through breath, and accept the inevitable. It will only be an hour or two lol.
So, yes, my bearded dragon died, and yes I cried… But through the pain and through my tears and through my insane obsession to have Little Bit alive and healthy, I grew. The situation may look bleak now, but the sun ALWAYS comes out, and there is ALWAYS a silver of lining waiting to be discovered. My dragon died because it was ALREADY sick. The dragon would have died regardless of if I pick it up from the pet store or not. I was drawn to that dragon for my lesson. So I could experience what I needed to grow. It was through the pain of death that I realized, no matter how much you try to hold on, you can’t… And if you do, it will only cause you more pain…… BUT, BUT, BUT…. You CAN arm yourself with the knowledge and strength you need to avoid it happening again 🙂
I will definitely take a closer look at my next dragon. I will allow myself to let go, and save myself the struggle and extra tears. Within you is the power you have to grow, shall you choose to connect to it. If you do. NO-ONE or NO-THING can ever stand in your way… You are beautiful, and I love you. Have a wonderful day.
“If you fight against what you can’t change. You’re fighting a battle you are destined to loose. “
*This Week I Got Stoned On: Moldavite, Moss agate, White agate, Blue Druzy Quart, Tourmalined Miky Quartz
The Stones Made Me Do It!!!